I am a transvestite bottom gay. although I have sex with women but the anal orgasm I experience with my boy?

friend is more powerful and intense than the orgasm I have with a woman. I want to become a woman. I don't mid if I don't have vaginal orgasm after transition, provided I continue to have the same anal orgasm. I don't like a man kissing me unless he has a cute face. My be its because of male hormones. I don't want to retain sexual attraction for women after transition as it is frustrating not to have the capacity to fulfill one's desires. I need guidance from trans women, specially those who had similar experience. Trans women please write to me. My e-mail ID is nadeem.mehtab@yahoo.com